Savior, please keep saving me.

There's about fifty bajillion things I could post right now, which would get my thoughts together. For now, I'll say that I'm recently been reminded that God is faithful, and my salvation is through Jesus Christ- praise God it is not dependent on me!

Here's a song that I enjoy. Given, it's kind of cheesy at times, but I appreciate this.

Savior, please take my hand
I work so hard, I live so fast
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can, but I don't know how long I'll last

I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love
Savior, please keep saving me

Savior, please help me stand
I fall so hard, I fade so fast
Will You begin right where I end
And be the God of all I am because You're all I have

Hallelujah
Everything You are to me
Is everything I'll ever need
And I am learning to believe
That I don't have to prove a thing
'Cause You're the one who's saving me.

Thanks, Josh Wilson.
ps, if you click on his name, the link will take you to the song.

xoxo

sen10r

I'm not sure how I feel about all this.. all of these lasts. And on top of that, I'm not even reacting how I thought I would. Being a Camden-grown, football-loving, thought-the-town-closed-on-Friday-night-because-everyone-was-at-the-game kind of girl, I definitely thought I would cry quite at bit on Senior Night at Zemp or at my last football game. Well, I didn't. As much as I'm not a fan of basketball season, I thought that maybe some tears would come my way when we lost during playoffs. Well, they didn't. And maybe- as much as I really, really am not a fan of Meet the Bulldogs- I thought that I would be a little emotional as I cheered my last at Camden High. Well, I wasn't.

Now, for any of you who know me, you know that I can cry pretty easily. It's actually pretty embarrassing sometimes. So, this lack of emotion is surprising, to say the least. and I'm kind of expecting some huge emotional breakdown at some strangely insignificant moment- which is scary. Maybe I'll be turning in a calculus assignment, and burst into tears; walking across the Commons and see Coach Ammons and start bawling; maybe sending off my last scholarship application (oh wait. those will be tears of joy). Who knows, but I feel like I understand everything that's happening but it hasn't hit me yet.



For all you seniors out there-


and I'm not sure how to upload a Youtube video on here, but.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gxqFdcZz974&feature=player_embedded#

happy (yester)day!

This post is dedicated to Peyton Bullard, for receiving her acceptance letter from Clemson yesterday! I'm excited about rooming with you next year and making tons of memories that we can blog about. :)


Well, just some updates.
★ The B-dogs are still in the playoffs for basketball, aka I won't be attending Winterjam for the second year. It was pretty sweet last year, because we WON STATE, but I seem slightly less motivated this year. At the same time, though, as much as I truly want basketball season to be over, when I'm at the game, it is impossible to wish a loss upon our boys. It's such a struggle.

★ Tonight, when I was talking to Daniel Kuzbary on the phone, he said something which required a "just kidding" and after I didn't really respond, he said "I wish I was there to console you, but I just patted the phone like I would pat your head." That amused me.

★ Also, I've really been loving cookie dough lately- thanks, Bekah Austin. I know you're reading. ;) See, we have some of those ready-to-bake cookies at my house, and who wouldn't think to themselves, "Look at that conveniently bite-size portion of chocolate chip goodness?" You don't even need a knife to cut off a piece. It's practically fate, except that I don't believe in that..

★ Lastly, there's this thing called Superintendent's Student Cabinet meeting: basically class presidents from each school get together, chat, and eat pizza with Dr. Morgan. This man is such an artist with words, commonly calling a sticky situation a bear- i.e., "Morning traffic at LE is such a BEAR!"- or creating new ways to express individuality: "whatever flips your pancakes." So, basically, I come to these meetings expecting to hear a new phrase, and while it wasn't so unique, today he informed us that our next meeting was "sure to thrill us beyond all rational comprehension." I love sarcasm.

xoxoxo

Romans 3:22-24
This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference, for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus.

rename: Peyton's a hater.

So, Peyton and I came up to Clemson Thursday night, and we're here until Sunday. We've been apartment hopping, seeing all the highlights of the school.. by highlights, I basically mean snow. I'm kind of bummed that it snowed in Camden the one weekend I was away, but snow feels a little more special at Clemson. I made my first snowman ever last night, and he was legit. This six-foot creation was affectionately referred to as Calvin, although I'm positive he has long since joined Frosty wherever snowmen go post-freezing temperatures. Also- going back in time- Thursday night, we were able to go to FCA, which is cool but shows me that it's going to be hard to choose what to be a part of next year.


Speaking of, as ready as I am to be here next year, I don't nearly feel old enough to say that. Next year. Five months. That's really exciting, because I love Clemson, and there are so many opportunities here, but I still feel so young. That's kind of hard to explain, and I'm sure there'll be more of this dicussion to come- stay tuned! haha, sike.


In other news- Valentine's Day. Now, for someone's never had a real relationship, I can understand why a lot of single individuals hate the "holiday". but I'm really down with Valentine's Day, boyfriend or not. I would agree that it's such a Hallmark business initiative it's not even funny BUT I think it's a good excuse for couples to see each other (actually, I'm just talking about Malkoff and Bekah). and I try to let it remind me of my future husband, the man that God has created and prepared for me. I need to be reminded as often as possible to pray for him and pray for my preparation, too. There is- and always will be- so much in me in need of sanctification, and I have so much to learn before that relationship. I will bring my relationship with Christ into my relationship with him, and his to me. Well, that could be a tangent, and I don't know any answers, but it's a scary/exciting thought.


ps, I really want to paint something right now.


Psalm 27:14
Wait on the Lord. Be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

xoxoxo

here's to you, Camden High... cheerleading.

Well, tonight was our last basketball game of the season. Our girls didn't make playoffs (although they played wonderfully tonight!), but our boys will be starting the playoffs away next week- aka, for seniors, tonight was the last time we'll cheer on the b-dogs at home. I mean, we still have Meet the Bulldogs, but that doesn't count.

To be honest, I'm not a huge fan of basketball season. It's kind of a relief when it's over; cheerleading season is basically June/July to February, so you get tired of it. However, it's weird to think that in a few weeks, playoffs will be over, my uniform will be turned in, and I'll walk away from cheerleading forever. So, in honor of the six years I've spent with Camden cheerleading, let's walk down memory lane.

*Too bad I didn't have a facebook in middle school. As it is, I have no pictures from then. but here are some highlights from 10th to 12th grade :)





Sophomore Year: Basketball Season


Junior Year: Cheerleading Camp at Lander University


Junior Year: those jerseys...


Junior Year: STATE!


Senior Year: Seniors ring the bell.


Senior Year: Last football game eva.


Senior Year: Basketball season, reunion with past Mascot :)



Hail to Camden High School Bulldogs
Fight on to victory!
We will always stand beside you
to show our loyalty.
Fight on with great determination
to push our rivals back.
Hail to Camden High School Bulldogs,
to the grand ol' gold and black!

best roomies forever-

BRFs for short.

I just wanted to dedicate an entire blog to Julie Hagerup! Now, friends, don't feel left out or unloved if I don't write one about you... not that most people read this anyway.

Julie's just amazing. Let me give you some background. This summer, I went to Arlington, Texas, for a little over five weeks. About two days after my arrival, Julie arrives, as well, and is my roomie! We lived in an apartment, and our roommates came and went (very special people, too, I might add) but Julie was my ROOMmate. We shared that cute, little, white, plain room with two mattresses on the floor and a dresser. Good thing I brought pictures of all my friends from Camden to liven up the space! Anyway, back to Julie. God knew what He was doing when He put us together, and honestly, I believe that Julie was one huge way that God answered the prayers of my friends/family back home. My first few days there were really overwhelming, but building friendships with my team and roommates truly encouraged me and reminded me to trust God's unfailing love.

So, here's to you, Julie- a list of reasons why you're incredible.

1. You let me debrief each day, and sat through my crazy long prayers.

2. During those debriefings, you shared with me, too, as well as encouraged and taught me.

3. You always played your guitar! I enjoyed that so much.. for real.

4. We shared ice cream and pineapple (not together, of course).

5. You always try to stay in touch! I appreciate that so much, especially since I'm horrible at returning phone calls, texts, etc. Over the past two weeks, I've probably missed my end of the deal about seven times.

6. You know my friends by name and are Facebook friends with most :)

7. You haven't sent me my Christmas present. This makes me happy because it doesn't make me feel guilty that I haven't mailed yours yet, either.

8. You read my blog without me asking ;)

9. You always have great finds in the bins and can sing that Birfday song like no one else.

10. You are my sister in Christ! Every time I think of you, I'm encouraged by your faith and how you supported me in Arlington. You are so transparent, honest, and real. I remember your desire to want God, even when you didn't feel like it. God is growing you and using you tremendously! when you realize it or not.



This is probably out of context but,

Ecclesiastes 4:9-10
Two are better than one because they have a good return for their labor. For if either of them falls, the one will lift up his companion. But woe to the one who falls when there is not another to lift him up.



I love you!